work and work whole day:
Today was a really busy day. Out from my room since morning 10:00 and now entering at 1:00 am. well, yesterday night I passed through a big breaking phase. Well, but then always work makes me forget all pains. So, was really good day for me working all the time. Infact, working like this gives me a lot of satisfaction. It always makes me feel that i did something worthful in the day and did't waste it. Well, the best part of the work was in the eveing.In our homework problem, we were given security protocols to attack which is a really exciting task for me. I love brain-storming work rather then do-as-directed kind of work.
In the morning it was installation of globus andthen security and did't even realize how the day went. but at the end of the day happy for efficiently utilizing my time.Moreover, it's a good sign of me comming back to my regular routine.
I would like to make a statement here. "Work is the best medicine to come out of difficult emotional breakdowns".
Monday, August 28, 2006
Saturday, August 26, 2006
On the verge comming out of difficult phase:
Life is really unpredictable, and just the lesson is you need to move along.There are times when things and situations seem to be steady but well sudden turns makes you spell bound.
There is no one to complain to about it, and moreover there is no point in complaining.
I was so confused about what to do next.This is my second last semester, and the last one will be training. Now, it's a high time to decide.I have already got a job, but was still in a dilema whether to go for it or not. According to my dad, 1 yr of job experience and then M.B.A. would be a better choice. Acoording to my mamma, going for M.B.A. straight away will be more preferable.Oh! god I m so confused. But evaluating the current situation, I am not at all in the state right now to give the C.A.T. this time.I am so not prepared.So, well the decision is not that difficult as would go for C.A.T. next year.
I had lost focus since few weeks. The situations had got me diverted from my C.A.T. prep.Suffered from emotional breakdowns a lot, feeling lonely, feeling home-sick etc...Was't able to concentrate much in my work. Well, being quite a senti girl, relationsips have a lot of importance to me. Any changes in it affects my mindset a lot. Though by observing me from a distance won't make one even have a glimpse of the depressing state I pass through, but deep within my heart i m really sad and have been broken. I try to remain normal each day and hide my sorrows but it becomes really difficult at times. At the end of each day end up in breaking down by that incident. But, surely I am in improved conditions then few days back.Thanks a lot to my friends who try to keep me busy by forcefully involving in the discussions and try to crack silliest joke for just a smile on my face. On top of all this the best part is the suggestions they give me to come out of this stage.Well, I have almost reached quite nearer to the end of this situation with higher moralistic approach on positive side and the whole hearted support of friends.
Now, when I think of the past few weeks, I feel so annoyed by myself by just wasting out my time like this on things for which we can not change. Well, my biggest weakness is i am very emotionally bound. That is why I generally try take a lot of time to get attached with people but then when I get close to them I give my 100% in it. I need to improve my this weakness. I am so dumb at times getting out of focus for some reasons which are not in my hands to change.This is a kinda loss as I lost my few weeks which were really important.The importance of those weeks I realise now, as i have already missed the time for giving my C.A.T. this year. Well, but still god has left an option out for me.
I hope from this lesson of life I will try to be careful with myself. Good lesson from life. I feel complaining that 'why this happened to me? why i was chosen to suffer like this?'. But then it is like complains are of no use. No changes in the situations. It's much better to come out and get myself engaged in work and keep myself busy with it to forget about it.It's easy to say but difficult to execute. Yeah, difficult but not impossible. Now, no more complaining. Just taking positive outcome of it. I should take it as a lesson of life, pointer to weakness and trigger to make me learn to come out of the situations fast and move along with time. Well, the best thing happened in all odds was, I took 3 courses instead of my 2 electives just to keep myself busy,as once i work nothing in the world can create impact on me. So, it will add a great amount of knowledge of 'Data Mining' which to me is an important field for me as my dream is to become manager. And when computers can predict market trens and few dicision making factors is a lot of more helpful task. My classmates consider me stupid taking all the 3 subjects but somehow i don't feel that i have done a mistake. Everytime I attend the class and there is a discussion about the subjects I feel happy from inside as i am able to contribute on all the things . Just a little bit of more time devotion required, which is not so problematic as I do waste quite a lot of time here and there.
"Whatever happens happens for good", just thinking that I have changed my apporoach. I have to move on and that to with a smile and not guilt or with sadness due to the incident. I have to fight and cross many milestones like these. God Bless Me.
Life is really unpredictable, and just the lesson is you need to move along.There are times when things and situations seem to be steady but well sudden turns makes you spell bound.
There is no one to complain to about it, and moreover there is no point in complaining.
I was so confused about what to do next.This is my second last semester, and the last one will be training. Now, it's a high time to decide.I have already got a job, but was still in a dilema whether to go for it or not. According to my dad, 1 yr of job experience and then M.B.A. would be a better choice. Acoording to my mamma, going for M.B.A. straight away will be more preferable.Oh! god I m so confused. But evaluating the current situation, I am not at all in the state right now to give the C.A.T. this time.I am so not prepared.So, well the decision is not that difficult as would go for C.A.T. next year.
I had lost focus since few weeks. The situations had got me diverted from my C.A.T. prep.Suffered from emotional breakdowns a lot, feeling lonely, feeling home-sick etc...Was't able to concentrate much in my work. Well, being quite a senti girl, relationsips have a lot of importance to me. Any changes in it affects my mindset a lot. Though by observing me from a distance won't make one even have a glimpse of the depressing state I pass through, but deep within my heart i m really sad and have been broken. I try to remain normal each day and hide my sorrows but it becomes really difficult at times. At the end of each day end up in breaking down by that incident. But, surely I am in improved conditions then few days back.Thanks a lot to my friends who try to keep me busy by forcefully involving in the discussions and try to crack silliest joke for just a smile on my face. On top of all this the best part is the suggestions they give me to come out of this stage.Well, I have almost reached quite nearer to the end of this situation with higher moralistic approach on positive side and the whole hearted support of friends.
Now, when I think of the past few weeks, I feel so annoyed by myself by just wasting out my time like this on things for which we can not change. Well, my biggest weakness is i am very emotionally bound. That is why I generally try take a lot of time to get attached with people but then when I get close to them I give my 100% in it. I need to improve my this weakness. I am so dumb at times getting out of focus for some reasons which are not in my hands to change.This is a kinda loss as I lost my few weeks which were really important.The importance of those weeks I realise now, as i have already missed the time for giving my C.A.T. this year. Well, but still god has left an option out for me.
I hope from this lesson of life I will try to be careful with myself. Good lesson from life. I feel complaining that 'why this happened to me? why i was chosen to suffer like this?'. But then it is like complains are of no use. No changes in the situations. It's much better to come out and get myself engaged in work and keep myself busy with it to forget about it.It's easy to say but difficult to execute. Yeah, difficult but not impossible. Now, no more complaining. Just taking positive outcome of it. I should take it as a lesson of life, pointer to weakness and trigger to make me learn to come out of the situations fast and move along with time. Well, the best thing happened in all odds was, I took 3 courses instead of my 2 electives just to keep myself busy,as once i work nothing in the world can create impact on me. So, it will add a great amount of knowledge of 'Data Mining' which to me is an important field for me as my dream is to become manager. And when computers can predict market trens and few dicision making factors is a lot of more helpful task. My classmates consider me stupid taking all the 3 subjects but somehow i don't feel that i have done a mistake. Everytime I attend the class and there is a discussion about the subjects I feel happy from inside as i am able to contribute on all the things . Just a little bit of more time devotion required, which is not so problematic as I do waste quite a lot of time here and there.
"Whatever happens happens for good", just thinking that I have changed my apporoach. I have to move on and that to with a smile and not guilt or with sadness due to the incident. I have to fight and cross many milestones like these. God Bless Me.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Hard times:
There is a girl and a boy.Both used to like each other and then it turns out into love. They had a really good time though it was a very less time.They found to understand each other and try to not hurt each other's feelings.The situations takes the boy far for good reasons. They agree for certain level of understanding and continue with their relationships.But then the bad luck always play the role. Something goes wrong in the whole part,some loophole or something lacking. But what is lacking? Where did the problem arise? Infact, what is the problem? I still wonder about it.
As taught in management courses lack of communication, sorry i will correct myself "Lack of proper communication leads to huge disaster in organizations", similarly here in social world the law is applicable too. Lack of proper communications can screw up the relations. But then it's difficult when one is not at all ready to talk as well as even don't accept that fact. well, it hurts a lot.Pains a lot, as there is somewhere in some corner a true deep love in the relationship which is not allowing to say or portray anything negative in the situation and always positively asks to give a new chance.
This realation is becomming more confusing. No proper or let's say exact state is there?. If you ask that does that relationship exists currently,it will be difficult to answer. It's like the end of it is not declared as one person can not say things directly or clearly as they are and keep the other person hanging up middle in the error. Sometimes, initially taking care of the other person is found very sweet but then the same thing with the distance, going far and after a time is found annoying and is considered as advice which is not to be heard off by the intended person. Well, this was just a simple example. Many these sentimental things makes this thread rough and difficult to find happiness in it. Thus, when a situtation comes which is a kind of dilema like " the relationship exists or not", it is one of the hardest time to face.
Well, nothing in hands except be patient and tolerant and wait and watch the game of time and destiny. One just prays for the success of the other for all happiness and success. This is a hidden true love. Well, but then also decides not to try anymore on these issues, as self-respect comes into the picture. This shows the bitterness in the relations.
Tough time. Just hope for some unpredictable magic which works to make everything like initial stage makes the survival a bit soothing. well, this reminds me of the famous saying
"Love and not Time heal wounds"
There is a girl and a boy.Both used to like each other and then it turns out into love. They had a really good time though it was a very less time.They found to understand each other and try to not hurt each other's feelings.The situations takes the boy far for good reasons. They agree for certain level of understanding and continue with their relationships.But then the bad luck always play the role. Something goes wrong in the whole part,some loophole or something lacking. But what is lacking? Where did the problem arise? Infact, what is the problem? I still wonder about it.
As taught in management courses lack of communication, sorry i will correct myself "Lack of proper communication leads to huge disaster in organizations", similarly here in social world the law is applicable too. Lack of proper communications can screw up the relations. But then it's difficult when one is not at all ready to talk as well as even don't accept that fact. well, it hurts a lot.Pains a lot, as there is somewhere in some corner a true deep love in the relationship which is not allowing to say or portray anything negative in the situation and always positively asks to give a new chance.
This realation is becomming more confusing. No proper or let's say exact state is there?. If you ask that does that relationship exists currently,it will be difficult to answer. It's like the end of it is not declared as one person can not say things directly or clearly as they are and keep the other person hanging up middle in the error. Sometimes, initially taking care of the other person is found very sweet but then the same thing with the distance, going far and after a time is found annoying and is considered as advice which is not to be heard off by the intended person. Well, this was just a simple example. Many these sentimental things makes this thread rough and difficult to find happiness in it. Thus, when a situtation comes which is a kind of dilema like " the relationship exists or not", it is one of the hardest time to face.
Well, nothing in hands except be patient and tolerant and wait and watch the game of time and destiny. One just prays for the success of the other for all happiness and success. This is a hidden true love. Well, but then also decides not to try anymore on these issues, as self-respect comes into the picture. This shows the bitterness in the relations.
Tough time. Just hope for some unpredictable magic which works to make everything like initial stage makes the survival a bit soothing. well, this reminds me of the famous saying
"Love and not Time heal wounds"
Monday, August 14, 2006
Distance in Relationships:
A distance in a relationship can affect exactly in two ways.One is, the person comes closer to you with a strong and a very difficult to break bond.And second is, the person goes away from you so far that at times you don't feel the need of them being into your life.
When looking at the stage where the pysical distances works as a kind of medication to tear down the abstract distances in the relationships, we talk about the strength of the relationships.The strength increases and as due to the distance you get time to understand the person.It has been like a universal fact that "Entities are most valued in their absence".When the person is away, somehow even the smallest statement made by him/her for you flashes your mind at the given similar situations.You feel the lonely niche in your routine and the life going on, though everything seems perfect by all your effort some sort of unsatisfaction remains which is even though sound strange but may be filled up perfectly even by just a comment or a compliment made by the person who is away from you. You start valuing the person more and more at every point of time. One of the very good example uptill now i have found is about children when in the hostel or dorme value their home and the effort put by their parents to bring up them so well and comforting every moment by helping and being with them at every posible stage which in dorme or hostel is found to be missing by them. Even when you talk about infacuations there are many real life cases in which these turns out into love and then build up themseleves into the very strong relationships when they work out with a distance in a relationship. Well, so distance can also play a major role in bringing people togather and get tied up in a strong bonds.
But now when we talk about the negative impact of the relationships,well this physical distance can act also as a slow poison in the well decorated perfect container of this so-called relationships. The most spiking factor which according to me that comes here is the feeling of being ' ignored ' .Well, with every phase of life and change of place and time, the life-style of the person changes accordingly and that is a natural impact which works out on every person. As this kind of change when happens on only one side of the relationship then it does create these kind of feelings of being ' ignored ' as the situation on the opposite shore is not being understood properly. Sometime, the distance brings out the real qualities of the opposite person in the relation which may not have been visible when you are right next to each other. The another important characteristic that plays another important role is patience and tolerance. At times due to long distance and not enough communications, things do get mis-interpreted and then people tend to loose their patience and tolerance power which end up in cutting-off the relationships.
When i wrote the word relationship, i meant to apply it every relationship a human being can get involved into.This is very much applicable to the children who spent their much of the time in hostel and then that distance may create the impacts in their relationships with the family.It also applies to the two people involved in the relations like marriage, commited or friendship etc.Just, it is in our hands whether to make our relations work like medications or like poison.A bit of undertanding, patience and tolerance can bring out many different colours to this wonderful thread.Just value all the good things of the people related to you and then see how the relations change and fit into the right positions in the game of life of human being.
At the end the quote worth keeping in mind:
"Everything existent on this earth has atleast been gifted by one good quality and not a single thing on the earth is made perfect by God"
A distance in a relationship can affect exactly in two ways.One is, the person comes closer to you with a strong and a very difficult to break bond.And second is, the person goes away from you so far that at times you don't feel the need of them being into your life.
When looking at the stage where the pysical distances works as a kind of medication to tear down the abstract distances in the relationships, we talk about the strength of the relationships.The strength increases and as due to the distance you get time to understand the person.It has been like a universal fact that "Entities are most valued in their absence".When the person is away, somehow even the smallest statement made by him/her for you flashes your mind at the given similar situations.You feel the lonely niche in your routine and the life going on, though everything seems perfect by all your effort some sort of unsatisfaction remains which is even though sound strange but may be filled up perfectly even by just a comment or a compliment made by the person who is away from you. You start valuing the person more and more at every point of time. One of the very good example uptill now i have found is about children when in the hostel or dorme value their home and the effort put by their parents to bring up them so well and comforting every moment by helping and being with them at every posible stage which in dorme or hostel is found to be missing by them. Even when you talk about infacuations there are many real life cases in which these turns out into love and then build up themseleves into the very strong relationships when they work out with a distance in a relationship. Well, so distance can also play a major role in bringing people togather and get tied up in a strong bonds.
But now when we talk about the negative impact of the relationships,well this physical distance can act also as a slow poison in the well decorated perfect container of this so-called relationships. The most spiking factor which according to me that comes here is the feeling of being ' ignored ' .Well, with every phase of life and change of place and time, the life-style of the person changes accordingly and that is a natural impact which works out on every person. As this kind of change when happens on only one side of the relationship then it does create these kind of feelings of being ' ignored ' as the situation on the opposite shore is not being understood properly. Sometime, the distance brings out the real qualities of the opposite person in the relation which may not have been visible when you are right next to each other. The another important characteristic that plays another important role is patience and tolerance. At times due to long distance and not enough communications, things do get mis-interpreted and then people tend to loose their patience and tolerance power which end up in cutting-off the relationships.
When i wrote the word relationship, i meant to apply it every relationship a human being can get involved into.This is very much applicable to the children who spent their much of the time in hostel and then that distance may create the impacts in their relationships with the family.It also applies to the two people involved in the relations like marriage, commited or friendship etc.Just, it is in our hands whether to make our relations work like medications or like poison.A bit of undertanding, patience and tolerance can bring out many different colours to this wonderful thread.Just value all the good things of the people related to you and then see how the relations change and fit into the right positions in the game of life of human being.
At the end the quote worth keeping in mind:
"Everything existent on this earth has atleast been gifted by one good quality and not a single thing on the earth is made perfect by God"
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